have you ever gotten that feeling that you just don’t belong anymore or that you’re left out? i’m completely feeling that right now. hard. we used to be so close and now we’re basically all strangers to each other; giving awkward hi’s in the hallway and all that civil bullshit. i want my friends back. the ones i used to know when things were better. back when we were all happy and in a right state of mind. now we’re just chaotic and underneath the surface i feel completely drained and i just want to give up sometimes but i can’t. i love these people too much to give up even though the majority of them have. it’s not just about not being invited to hang out for halloween but inviting everyone else. it’s not about what i’ve said or what you’ve said in the past. it’s about the fact that we’re all completely different and i’m obviously the black sheep of this family i thought we had. this sucks.
One of the biggest things that’s never failed to bother me about the friends I have is that none of them are ever as excited to take photographs as I am. I’m always the one snapping shots, snapping candids, snapping faces while everyone else around me either dismisses me or thinks I’m strange….
“Nobody lives, nobody dies. Nothingness lives, nothingness dies. You are not. Have a good laugh at this situation. You are not and you exist. You are not and you are. This is the cosmic joke.”—Osho (via 2216)